I am knackered, Bushed, Exhausted, Drained, Burned Out….You name it….I am absolutely gubbed!
I have given 3 years of my life to write and fight for Scotland to regain it’s Independence..
Why did I do so? Well not for me.. I have lived most of my life now, and I do not expect to live all that much longer.. If I make it to 62, I will have done better than than the male expectancy in some parts of Glasgow!
My mother died at 62, and only saw two years of her pension after grafting and scrubbing away for all her life.
So I have no real expectations for myself…Not because of where I live, but rather the lifestyle that I have led.. I smoke too much and have never really looked after myself…that is my choice,and there is a price to pay some day, and I can’t blame anyone else when my choices come home to roost.
That is reality, that is here and now, and no matter what, it has all been up to me.
Sometimes..there is nobody to blame but ourselves, and we should not go looking for scapegoats, yet this is what happens all too often!
In some ways I have an Idealistic view of Scots and of Scotland, and I guess I always have been that way, and part of me always will be that way.
In general I love my Country, I love my people, and I am proud to belong here.
Scots are in general the very best people in the world in my book,and In general we are very much loved the whole world over. I should know, I have covered the globe and when I have said where I come from, the reaction has been nothing but welcoming and good.
But lets not beat about the bush here, we have our fair share of indulgent bastards of all classes too! (sorry about the language, but its the best way I can express it)
When you look at the two campaigns and compare them, you see the divisions very clearly.
YES was a bloomin Disaster! NO was an absolute Disgrace! And Disgrace was what we have been left with.
If you have read Auld Acquaintance at all, you will see that I very early on had a load of criticism about how they were running it, and to be honest, If It were not for the grassroots taking control we would have been absolutely gubbed!
It is to the vast credit of all the local YES groups and other parties led by the people that we came as close as we did. The positive smiley faced uncritical face of the official campaign HQ was a load of garbage…. We should have had a public media voice which was tearing into all the garbage fear mongering shit that we were being fed, while at the same time really pointing out the very many positives we had to offer, and why we could and would be so much better off by being Independent..
Instead….We had a media entirely against us,without challenge.. We were fed utter dross, and barely whimpered..
Where we should have been hitting them with full barrels, we hung back..
It was left to those of us on Social Media and Blogs to try and get the message across…
Wings and Newsnet and Bella were the most read and shared….But be honest…How many of the millions out there even heard of me or read what I said? Not that many.
I know that I rebuffed most of the main arguments, but I also know that at best I got 1500 views for an article.
I was often sat listening to constructed debates on Tv….almost screaming at politicians on our side to up their game…to really mix things up, to not be constrained by the repetitive questions which simply were a regurgitation of Better Together crap!
Far too often….They played the game set out to them, not actually grabbing the ball and running with it..
If you play by the oppositions rules….You get stuffed… And We were…Well and Truly.
So what now?
Well on the morning of the 19th while being deflated, I thought to myself….NO….I will not accept this! This aint over.
All the energy of the local YES campaigns, RIC, Women for Independence etc, can not just die like this!
Scotland is not the Scotland of 3 years ago…We are Alive, We are Engaged, We are Aware!
No way can we just curl up and die… NO WAY!
Others like myself obviously thought the same way that day, and the 45 were born.
I thought.. Great!!!
Here we have something to hold onto.
But almost as soon as I joined, I left….
Why? Because there was an almost immediate attack on pensioners, who were perceived as being those who denied us our Independence.
No thoughts of the lies told to many of them that their pensions would be at risk! Many pensioners don’t have the resources to the Internet that we have. Many rely on word of mouth and the BBC and the newspapers! Plus many were told out and out lies, not counteracted until far too late.
In any case ….Many pensioners still voted YES!
I then thought about it, and decided the 45 were not for me.
If we are to gain Independence…We need far more than 45% , and much like we might feel justified as the shit hits the fan over war, fracking, nuclear dumping and broken worthless vows…
Making others feel like crap because they got taken in aint going to help us!
I have seen all sorts of blame games going on, and they are not pretty! Not even worthy of the Scotland I know..
Yes …We may be grieving now, but if we get our act together….not for long!
On that day…. 19th September 2014…. YES Alliance was born…
Come and join us….
In fact NOW
We begin again…. YES survives… and we will win..
Take the positives, learn the lessons, and join together…
YES WE CAN! And WE WILL! In Alliance …Parties, People, and Nation. #YES Alliance
Don’t Blame…..Get Even and Win!